
Yes that's right. Five positive pregnancy tests. But when I went to the Doctor a week later, I took another test that was negative. They took my blood and told me they would call back. A positive Hcg amount needs to be at a level 10, but when they called me, I was at a level 9. Sucks. So what had been..... was going away.
So therefore, I've been a bit ......eehhh.
So...... in the light of our sad news, my grief for Anna which is ever so near, resurfaces. I know many may not understand, but I felt the need to remember her, to memorialize her again, and so I had a little more added to her memorial tattoo on my back just behind my heart where she is safe. And this is the before and after.....(so sorry Mama!)
Before:

After:

So Much Better!
I wanted the "with Grace" because I want to be with Anna Grace, I want be surrounded by God's Grace, and I want to live my life with grace.
I also found this song, rather by accident. It was on the album of a song that was listed as a good bellydance song on iTunes. I downloaded the entire album and listened to it one rainy day. When I first heard the man speaking I didn't pay much attention to what he was saying, but then I caught some of the words. It's so beautiful. And it speaks to me.
Wow, even your wallowing is beautiful. I have been thinking about you so so so much. I miss just being around you. Your being makes me happy. I miss your being.
ReplyDeleteI love the enhanced artwork. It's perfect. Did you go to the same guy? Larcus, was it?
My beautiful friend, be well. I love you and miss you like I can't even explain. All my love.
Hey girl! I love the enhancement. I've been thinking about another myself. I wish you would call me and we could get together and wallow together. I hate that you are doing it alone! Please call me soon so we can get together! Love you!
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